I think one of my main anger causing topics is ADHD cause I've always felt comfortable with having it it's just hard cause the kids are getting more judgmental and now it's getting hard to be myself and not be self conscious about it cause I'm getting asked what's wrong with me like Im a psycho daily. And it's just hard sometimes cause I can't stop myself and the people just keep in asking and pushing my boundaries and poking at me and it hurts a lot sometimes cause when you're told to get help daily based on your outward actions and the tiny glimpse people see of you. It's hard when there are people everywhere who see it as an emotion and don't understand it or even try to understand what it feels like to be the person who kills hamsters in their free time and how it feels to literally be told by the same people day after day that they're getting sick of you and they liked you at first but it's sorta getting tiring because they've had enough of the giggling maniac. It's not that I just want **** to stop telling me to fix myself. I want **** to stop staring at me weirdly. I want **** to stop saying it sounds like I'm killing hamsters every time I laugh. I want **** to stop laughing at my over sharing instead of stopping me in the first place. I want **** to stop going along with it all and to stop asking me what labels I identify with. I want people to stop using my triggers as jokes and the things I care most about as invalidity.
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AuthorHey y'all, this is really emo. It's also really old. I'm in high school now, so if you're reading this, please stop, as it's very cringy. I'm 14 now, by the way. Archives
September 2018
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